Have you ever tried to introspect yourself? Our insides are so troubled and agitated, but in due course of time we tend to forget that, or shall I say ignore that. We master ourselves in every other aspect but when it comes to our conscience, we don’t seem to exaggerate it at all, and it hence remains dormant forever. Doesn’t this lead to a perturbed future?
Very often we try to remain silent for some time, not talking to people giving dumb excuses like, “I am not in a good mood” or “I am ill, please leave me alone for a while”, but in actuality we are trying to peep within and see what is wrong with us. This generally happens when an important task or duty goes erroneous or rather is “screwed up”. We try finding faults within ourselves, as to “Why did it happen to me?” Let me take a very special case in our student life. Suppose there are two people A and B, both are extremely good pals. Let’s just say, A has a good academic performance throughout and so does B, but at one point of time A, maintains his firm over the lessons but B, for some reason or the other, is not able to come up to his own expectations. He gets unexpected marks in exams and gets frustrated on his repeated down trod. The first thing that comes to his mind when he tries to introspect himself is “Why did it happen to me? ‘A’ didn’t screw up any test, why is it only me?” Actually, he is not introspecting, but actually finding faults within him. Remember, introspection and finding faults are completely different, we tend to confuse seldom.
This is the time B must be calming himself down, because proving himself inferior to A by finding faults will only demoralize him further and he would remain at that state forever. By this example, what I meant to say is do not try to judge, you will have ample time to do so when you’ll be doing a statistical analysis of your performance later, but for the time being try not to dishearten yourself by highlighting your follies. Now the question is; what is introspection then?
Introspection is long, careful and vivid thinking. It’s about you; give it sufficient time! Unlike B, do not start jumping to conclusions directly, but sit quietly, take deep breaths and let thoughts storm your brain. Think about your desires, your wishes and what makes you happy. You may know that, whatever we do in our lives is for our own happiness, we do not live for others, right? Every tiny action you perform is because you know that will make you happy in some or the other way. So, why ignore that when you are looking into yourself? Now, when you have collected yourself some thoughts start prioritizing them; put the best desire on the top of the list. And then consider the errand that worries you, does it affect the topmost desire too much? If no, then you have no reason to get sad, be cheerful once again! You will surely be that’s for sure!
But if it seems to affect it very much, then it has been time since you have concentrated on it. This is the lack of focus that has taken your path away from your desire. Try to regain that focus, try to look through the insignificant wants and reach your primary goal through the logical route of vision first. You’ll see that you automatically start finding solutions to your problem, because that is hindering your journey to fulfill your desire! And this is true, that solutions come themselves, you don’t have to bang your head on the wall searching for a way to solve the problem you are facing. And once you have done this, there’s no point in mourning! Newton almost had minor cardiac arrests, later when he was old, in happiness when he found a solution to his problems!
This is something I wrote based on myself, I do it and have done it in the past and will improve it in the future. It might happen that people find it illogical and absurd to follow, but it has definitely helped me through.
